I don't know how to start, I'm afraid from the beguining,closed in my room,crying,thinking of everything... When I saw you first day at school and I made a fool of myself saying to everyone that I love you... When I said “I never loved like this” then I realized that I would spend my whole life with you... And now I see that everything in life is passing by,sitting here,fucked up,first love that went away...I can't watch you standing next to someone else and the thing that hurts the most is that you say you love me...I know words don't mean a thing but words kill me,you say I mean something to you but others have you. I dream of you, I search for you and when I see you, you disappear... I search the rest that's left from my soul and I think that it's my fault that I don't have you. I thought that nothing can take you away from me,I thought I could be with you and go on happy ever after but how did we after all of that separate like this... I see the clock working but time is standing still and I'm waiting it to pass so the pain can go away, I'm waiting you to come and hug me like always but I know that's just a beautiful memory. Honey if you knew how much I need your smile,our happiness and the sadness that was better than this one,these nights since I don't have you I walk around alone,everything I see reminds me of you People i see i don't rember them the next day 'cus i was drinking just not to thik abou you... I search you in the others,again alone,thinking of the past and I realize that the past I want it back... Believe me I can't forget everything but I know I can change if that's what you want,I don't want you to love me I just want a chance and love will come after. You know how much you mean to me but I understand sometimes it has to hurt, Be sincere,that's all I'm asking... Everything you have to know is that I really love you... And after all of this I'm waiting for you but time kills me slowly...<3
I sleep all night, right by your side i love to hear you breathing, the morning light opens my eyes its nearly time for leaving, i know that it seems like it's easy for me i wish you could see whats going on inside
It's the hardest thing i ever have to do to walk away from you when i wanna hold you it's the hardest thing in every single way to have to turn away i want you to know that this is the hardest thing
Another day it skies away i close my eyes to see your face the more away the longer it takes it feels like time is standing still wherever you go whatever you do i want you to know that you are on my mind it the harderst thing just to let go of your hand, it's the hardest thing to make you understand that i'll love you, feel you till the time i see you again it's the hardest thing
I belive that everything happens for a reason People change so you can learn to let go, things go wrong so you can appreciate them when they are right, you belive lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself and sometimes good things fall apart so good things can fall together...